Yesterday I had the very powerful and clear experience of allowing sadness, grief and mourning to flow through me, whilst ‘I’ observed. I did not ‘get in’ with my emotions. The image that was coming to me at the time Continue reading I Am Not My Emotions . . .
(originally posted July 19th 2013 at vulnerablog.com) I am this walking around smiling being Scowling often too I am blissfully communing with leaves and trees and the breeze As well as hearing my own hateful thoughts. I am kind in Continue reading And Then I’ll Be In Love
(originally posted June 10th 2013 at vulnerablog.com) It’s been building up but what a freaky day yesterday. I’d just decided to lie with it, do nothing else, not even eat. It was kind of calmly menacing. Thoughts of suicide. It Continue reading What the Black Dog Feels Like
(originally posted on June 6th 2016 at vulnerablog.com) Sometimes I just feel so fed up and heavy being me And I want me to die Who the hell is this me? I get confused knowing that I am all different Continue reading Fuck Off
(originally posted may 1st 2013 at vulnerablog.com) I’ve been ‘taking it easy’ and I’ve been feeling pretty good. My mood has totally let up in the last week. I have been practicing gratitude, meditating, doodling, writing some love letters and Continue reading Dreams, Doubts and Deamons
(originally posted April 24th 2013 at vulnerablog.com) It’s such a Divine blessing to be lifted from depression and bathed in total peace and contentment for a while. A wee while maybe. But a wee while non-the-less. To be neither racing Continue reading Feeling Fine and Ways of Getting There
originally Posted on April 3, 2013 Fearing Endlessness. Even Looking Into Nothingness Gratefully Silently Undergoing Intense Chronic Imaginings – Death Alleviates Lament. I can’t manage a picture today. I also wrote another blurting poem, but at this moment I’m too Continue reading . . .
Something new-ish is happening with my emotional body. I am, as usual, having floods and waves of tears; sadness, grief. I want, need to sob and pour and flood and pour. Over the past week I have been feeling the Continue reading The Paradox of Loving Myself Through Depression
originally posted at www.vulnerablog.com on March 24th 2013 I Don’t Want Your Medicine I don’t want your medicine. I want to feel Where I am Even though its wretched. I don’t want your medicine. To be squeezed Into numbness With Continue reading I Don’t Want Your Medicine – Poem
(originally posted at www.vulnerablog.com on March 22nd 2013) So, right now I’m curbing a deep depression. I’m remedying myself with abundant rest and gentle self talk. For me, my pattern has been that when I begin to start spiralling into Continue reading It’s OK to be Depressed